Writing is a complicated enigma for me. It's like a wild horse I can't tame, yet I still climb back up and try again to ride it. I write because I have to for schooling, but I also write for pleasure occasionally. Each time I sit down to write, for school or for pleasure, I try as hard as I can to conquer that horse. Sometimes I get farther than other times. The words flow better every now and then, I feel more confident. Other times It's like I'm fighting it with all I am. My writing working against me, I feel defeated. I can never seem to replicate the same level of writing consistently. I'm always all over the place in terms of quality. Yet I try over and over and keep getting back on the horse, riding out the weaves and lashes of that untamable steed. When I am given a prompt I can either take off running or fall flat on my face, it depends on my knowledge of the prompt's topic. For me a prompt can be a saddle, something to ease the difference in me and my writing, to make it easier. Other times a prompt can be a thunderstorm, pushing me and my horse to the limits. When I write on my own without a prompt, I am more comfortable. It can be equated to being in a familiar stable or field. Me and the horse are more comfortable and there is a better chance we will be compatible. I am often inspired by those who can write effortlessly, even though those people are hard to come by. Even more so I am impressed by those who put in incredible amount sod work and produce great writing. Sometimes I produce something decent and feel as though I am them. That doesn't mean I still don't fail at times. I will always have this battle between me and the horse. There will always be a difference, something setting us apart. But I am determined to tame this horse. I am determined to ride it. I can conquer my writing in time. I can overcome my fears and failures and succeed. It will take time and effort and practice and determination. Luckily I have the rest of my life to search every pasture and every plain, every field and every acre.
I like the idea of comparing your writing to a wild horse. I could do the same but for me it's a different aspect. Like you i write both for school and pleasure and sometimes i write really well while other times i fall of the horse. I am also allergic to horses so i could see it as sometimes i react badly to being on the horse and sometimes my symptoms subside long enough for me to accomplish something with my writing.
ReplyDeleteI like your ideas. Writing for me is such a difficult challenge, I think mostly because I hate to write. I really like the way you compared writing to taming a wild horse because I definitely agree. Writing is definitely a challenge and I too struggle with my consistency. I think it's all about your attitude going into the assignment. Looking at the task more positively will have a great effect on your paper.
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